Mehhh I'm not gonna bother anymore. "you will always get a response from me." Oh yeah? Well we know that's simply just not true, is it? I'm not gonna sit around waiting for responses anymore. It's not worth it. It's just all...bullshit. "please talk to me" Yeah....I am. But, it works both ways, bud. How about please RESPOND to me. Pffft.
I guess I keep giving him chances because we've known each other for so damn long. I keep thinking back to all those good memories of when we'd talk on MSN for hours. Sometimes about nothing. Sometimes about anything and everything. If I believed in the whole soulmate thing, I'd say he was it. I loved him and I still do. I remember the excitement and happiness I would feel when I came online and his name would pop up. The video chats. Telling him jokes just to see him smile. Sending each other videos and songs. We have history. We were so close. As close as we could be given the distance between us. I know that if it wasn't for the distance, we would have been more than what we were. I wish things had been different. We never even got to meet in person, and we never will.
I want to hold on to those happy memories, but now when I think back on them, it makes me sad. I know things are so different now. I wish they weren't. His wife must have really fucked him up bad.
I know I need to let go of this shit. It's not healthy to hold onto it.
Whatevs.
2:43 p.m. - Friday, Dec. 29, 2023
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