Day 18

I don't really know what to say. There's nothing TO say. No news. No email. No mail. Nothing. I should give up on this stupid thing because it was a failure.

I'd update about what's going on in my life, but absolutely nothing is happening. This was it. It was kinda fun having something to look forward to, but I knew deep down it wouldn't work.

I wonder if it got to him and I wonder if he actually read it. I know I got his address right. Maybe his wife checks the mail, saw it, and threw it away. I told him at the end of the letter that if I didn't hear from him, then I would take it as he really meant what he said about no longer wanting to talk to me, and I would never attempt to contact him again.

All I have left of this friendship are the memories, all the entries I wrote about our friendship. The MSN convos etc. I wonder if we'd still be friends today if I hadn't said those things to his wife.

I gotta let this go. It's done.

3:39 p.m. - Thursday, Aug. 05, 2021